I probably won't be online much for a couple of weeks - maybe an hour in the afternoon. And, I may not post anything here--maybe I will--but if I don't, I didn't die :o).

I love this poem. I heard a few years ago but forgot the title and author.

Poem: "Topography," by Sharon Olds from The Gold Cell (Alfred A. Knopf).

Topography

After we flew across the country we
got in bed, laid our bodies
delicately together, like maps laid
face to face, East to West, my
San Francisco against your New York, your
Fire Island against my Sonoma, my
New Orleans deep in your Texas, your Idaho
bright on my Great Lakes, my Kansas
burning against your Kansas your Kansas
burning against my Kansas, your Eastern
Standard Time pressing into my
Pacific Time, my Mountain Time
beating against your Central Time, your
sun rising swiftly from the right my
sun rising swiftly from the left your
moon rising slowly from the left my
moon rising slowly from the right until
all four bodies of the sky
burn above us, sealing us together,
all our cities twin cities,
all our states united, one
nation, indivisible, with liberty and justice for all.

Still shaking, but getting used to it. It's just strange.

Now I am totally fucked up. Not only am I shaking from head to toe but I can't concentrate and today I started crying for no reason. I just want this to stop.

I took me about five minutes to this far and remove the typos. :-|

The doctor gave me Ativan but said that is addictive and to only take it when needed. I took it yesterday and it made me sleep and then I felt like shit when I woke up. :-/

bye

Back from the doctor. He thinks it is from anxiety but they did some blood tests and we will know next week.

First, I don't know what I would be anxious about. Second, I am shaking all over all the time. Anyhow, I hope that he is correct. The other thing that they are checking for is thyroid problems.

She may look clean...

ruin
by Charles Bukowski from Septuagenarian Stew

William Saroyan said, "I ruined my
life by marrying the same woman
twice."

there will always be something
to ruin our lives,
William,
it all depends upon
what or which
finds us
first,
we are always
ripe and ready
to be
taken.

ruined lives are
normal
both for the wise
and
others.

it is only when
that life
ruined
becomes ours
we realize
then
that the suicides, the
drunkards, the mad, the
jailed, the dopers
and etc. etc.
are just as common
a part of existence
as the gladiola, the
rainbow
the
hurricane
and nothing
left
on the kitchen
shelf.

Okay, I think I may have mentioned this berfore but John Ashcroft is a very, very dangerous man.


Today Ashcroft held a news conference about the snipers. Apparently the feds moved in and filed charges first for the sole purpose of deciding where these guys would face trial. The federal charges on which they were being held were dropped and the accused snipers sent to the jurisdiction where they would have the best chance of being convicted and executed the fastest.

Why is the Justice Department in the middle of this? These guys, if convicted, will certainly be sentenced to either life in prison or death. I think Ashcroft will delight in playing a part in putting black non-christian men to death.

He should read his bible again. Commandment Six is "Thou shalt not Kill." Four simple words. Or are right-wing christians above their own god's law as well as their country's laws?

I know I sound like a black-helicopter-anti-government whacko, but I really am not. My idea of the role of government just differs from this administration's. Government should help the citizens and protect them, not look for people who are not like them and do its best to oppress them and force its religious beliefs on everyone else.

I am distraught over the election results. I just wanted the Democrats to hold on to enough Senate seats to keep the Republicans from ramming all kinds of laws through Congress. The Republicans now control all three branches of the federal government, with the Presidency, majorities in the House and Senate, and the ability to appoint federal judges and Supreme Court justices.

Less than 40% of registered voters went to the polls yesterday (I did vote). After the next two years of All-Bush-All-the-Time maybe more of us will get off our asses (but I doubt it). Well, enjoy your civil rights while you still have some.

"Think not that I am come to send peace on earth: I came not to send peace, but a sword." -- Jesus (Matthew 10:34)

Jesus was a Terrorist

Jesus was a terrorist
Enemy of the state
That's what the Romans labeled him
So he was put to death

He died for his beliefs
What's changed today?

Today bible-thumping cannibals
Reap money from his name
Buy cable networks & power
With old ladies' checks

If Jesus saw Pat Robertson
What do you think he'd say?

Tax-free they re-write our laws
And sick 'em on you
Women don't control their bodies
TV preachers do

Censor everything from bathing suits
To science books
From the schoolroom to the bedroom
They want our thoughts - or else

They treat us like the Romans
Used to treat the Christians
Even some churchgoing folks are scared

Modern catacombs of fear
Built with money, power and threats
Rock'n'roll is labeled porn
Sell a record, you're under arrest

Instead of fighting AIDS
They try to stop us having sex
They brag that they won't quit
Til they take dominion over our lives

Is freedom of speech such a terrorist act
Is spiritual peace such a satanic threat
Believe what you want
But we'll fight to keep
Out heads from being cemented in your sand.

-- Jello Biafra